a comment from a very good friend.

his was writen by a very good friend of mine sam yew . this was a comment of reply to my post " aiai a special friend" eventhough he was not involve in it , i guess a friend in need is a friend in deed .
thanks alot sam . .
del


Samnosuke Sakamoto said...

After traveling under the hot sun and cold moon, I find a shelter to rest. As a token of my appreciation, allow me to share my experience.In my travels, no one has ever proclaim themselves that they are representative of Him or maybe an Angel of Him. Simple enough, Him is always looking upon us, He's above taking care of us, guiding us and protecting us.

For people who actually discriminate and proclaim themselves as someone high are actually piece of crap with a maniac mind, these people are tend to born not to understand "suffer" but instead blaming Him for granting them "suffer".No matter who you are or what we are, they are times or maybe a point of view where we have to go a series of suffer and pain because that is where we'll grow.

In fact, Adele, you know your weakness, you choose to blame yourself... that might be a good act, but beware as not all sins are committed by you. People around us are always jealous, when jealousy surrounds their mind, they start talking bad to make you or your friends feel bad. That's why, they will blame Him if they one day suffer badly, maybe a lost of leg or one hands... and that time when I travel and saw them like that,

I will say "say thanks to Him, because he let you to understand the suffer and torture of others, instead of you just sitting down there and making a statement to actually make yourself feels better. Perhaps, this punishment will grant you a better life in your upcoming life".Well, I'm still happy that you have a stone heart, you never give up that easy, I hope this will lead you to making a better friendship with others and of course, make them smile and hope that they will say thanks to Him and to you! As a Traveler, I shall leave now, it's time to see how much people has suffered.Sam YewTraveler

February 19, 2008 7:17 AM

to COP members who happen to read my blog and feel hurt ..

MY prev post was not posted to hurt anybody but it was to show my friendship appreciation to aiyuen for a being a good friend to me . i guess having a blog is not a good thing after all cause it makes you " pour your heard content " then regret later. i may have regret how i made you all feel but i never regret what i said .
I know i am no place to judge who you all are and how you all serve God . but think of it this way .. if you cant even serve his people how are you going to serve him ? i never hate people neither do i hold grudges towards anyone . we are all humans born sinful that is why the blood of jesus christ was shed for us .
I guess for those of you who " terasa " or should i say feel hurt. i am sorry to put this on you . but i think its about time i took this hurt out of me and start new . yes we were all small and innocent . but remember words can scare for life . COP is like my family . i have grown up with you guys for more than 10 years.
I have grown so much in COP from all of your help . from pastors to leaders. and i cant thank you all enough for that. i wana leave everything behind. burn them and start new. we are all adults now and we have our minds of our own. let us just take this all as a lesson , learn from it , keep the younger generation out of it.



delmissacent

aiai .. a special friend.

happy 20th birthday ai first of all. wow you are now officially a WOMEN ! lol . Well ai you have always been there for me all the days throughout my rough times when i was in JB.

i thank god he sent you to COP or not i do not know how would i have survived . i can still remember the first day you step into church i knew you cause you knew ash. i never felt watmth and welcome in COP . i always went to church with a burden just puting it in my head i have to go . i go for god not for anyone else.

the things that they put me through the racist they all are. i remember bringing my cousin to sunday school once and pastor asked me to bring her in front to collect her gift. on the way to the front someone made this comment .. " EEE why so black one just came out of the oven is it. " my cousin was only 7 but the hurt she felt is till today. how would that had make me feel. MIND YOU the person who said this is a so call ' well known ' person in church , very gifted and the whole family calls themselves servants and god they all are gifted the parents are leaders of the church .. what do you call them ai ?? christians ?? or just plain hypocrates !! till toady my casuin has not gone to COP and she is already 13 .. this is hat i mean the hurt they leave on people

The hurt that they had left in me . you know whats the worse part about it ai.. they still walk pass you day by day knowing is still hurts . walking pass you proclaiming themselves to be people of god but not true to themselves . what has the world turn into .

ai you have no idea how much you have cahnged me inside and my perspective of going to church and not being bothered about what people think around me . u made me know the purpose of going to church . i know some of you who read my blog are asking yourself ... you mean 10 years of your life in church .. you dont know the meaning of going to church ... well .. at first i knew but ..

then i realise the TRUE meaning where people look down on you , discriminate you , hurt you , then proclaim htemselves to be christians . sigh ! i never had friends there ai . i could never point at a person in COP saying there .. thats the one i trust untilll i met shakina and you . the so call friends i use to have was actually fong yi ... and brother raymonds wife. they were the ones who talked to me and made me feel good.

they could have said i was the problem i was unfriendly. BUT look how am i suppose to be friendly when the first impression people gave me was .. EW ! my whole perspective of church and christians changed .. i do not blame anhybody but myself. cause i never should have let them get to me in the first place . i can say today i am doing much better than any of those people who said bad things about me.

i loved dancing so much but the discrimination and no patience in them left me to hate dance . BUT look where i am today .. i still dance i am still happy and i am known for my gifted talent dancing . Ai this post is not to discriminate anybody of anything like that BUT its to make you realise how you as an individual and as ia friend really helped me in life . help me cope help me come bacnk and not lead astray.

ai ... this is for you .. the one friend i would my heart for . the one person who deserves all the good things in life . the one person i truly respect and love .

thanks ai for benig such a good friend. i hope our friendship last forever . and please do note that if you want anyone to talk to i am always here for you ok .

love you

del

all or nothing ??

how selfish can life be ?
you be the judge ! even this is a song..... some people live by each words. . .

\I know when he's been on your mindThat distant look is in your eyes I thought with time you'd realize It's over, over It's not the way I choose to live And something somewhere's got to give As sharing this relationship gets older, older
You know I'd fight for you But how I can fight someone who isn't even there I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you I dont care if that's not fair
Chorus:(first time led by Dan with Erik in background)Cause I want it all Or nothing at all T
here's no where left to fallWhen you reach the bottom it's now or never Is it all Or are we just friends Is this how it ends With a simple telephone call You leave me here with nothing at all
There are times it seems to me I'm sharing you with memories I feel it in my heart But I don't show it, show it And then there's times you look at me As though I'm all that you can see Those times I don't believe it's right I know it, know it
Don't make me promises Baby you never did know how to keep them well I've had the rest of you Now I want the best of you It's time for show and tell
Chorus
Cause you and ICould lose it all if you've got no more room No room inside for me in your lifeCause I want it all Or nothing at all There's no where left to fall It's now or never
Chorus x2
geovisit();


how crap a song may be .. does it even make 1% sence ? can be applied to us ? can be aplied to life ? cause i want it all or nothing at all .. WOW

confusion , obsession , ditermination ?

life is so unpredictable . as you think all is going fine, someone comes by you and takes EVERYTHING away. ever felt like you had one opportunity at your feet you are the happiest thing alive , and just when you share it with someone it is all SHATTERED ! they don't believe in you they don't share that glory you want to share . they are more concern bout how it will effect them and not giving a damn about you. sometimes you feel like just packing your bags and just fly somewhere where nobody knows you exist . nobody knows there is such and such a person.
just when you think that person is you best friend , she turns her back and says erm ... i never really thought of you that way but yeah we do have things in common. just stab me for god sake lol. i am not being dramatic but seeing how life evolves around us and changes us. i thought i had met the perfect guy. As years when by i realise he was my FREAKING COUSIN that i could never have a relationship with. how can something so god and perfect be taken away from you that instance just like that ? how can life be so cruel ? lol

i guess that is what makes me the person that i am today. people i never took notice of.. and suddenly the next day i go to school i find my friends crying at the school gate cause HE"S GONE ! but no ! i just spoke to him yesterday he cant be gone ! how can god take someone so young and so dedicated . i guess god sent us here he can take us anytime .
ever had the fear of losing someone. no i am talking about your GF or BF there are other more important things in life that your so call love. i recently also realise how precious is YOUR life. if you cant love yourself enough how can you claim that you love someone else. even though i have been leaving by this rules this years of my life. but there comes to a point where you just break down and let it all out. i am so glad to have a friend to be with me all the time. even thought it maybe be just one or two friends. i rather have only 5 god friends who ADELE not just by name but also care for me rather than having a million friends who knows ADELE as just oh yeah i know that girl Adele .

life is never about quantity its about quality. you may have all the richest in the world but poses nothing in life. you think you never liked someone so much before. then as low as you try to keep something . the other second the whole world knows about it . you just feel like packing your bags and RUN and never come back . the pain and the embarrassment you feel everyday walking and facing them , just going on acting like you don't know they know. acting like i don't know YOU KNOW . i know it is also an embarrassment on your part aspeciallt to face your frinens . to know a girl like me could me could like a guy like you. god help me even i dont know. i cant answer that question. mind you, you aren't brad pit.

seeing my friend hurt so much make me feel like WHY PEOPLE HURT is it worth it. then someone told me . sometimes you are so in your comfort zone you need to learn the hard way even if it is taking away part of your life .

20 years of life . everything that happen to me made me the person that i am today . i may not be perfect i may not be mother Theresa. but all i know is no one owns me but me. i live by my rules . nothing or no one can ever change that. i cannot be weak i cannot let anything hinder me from the truth . sometimes we need to tights slaps on the face to make us " WAKE UP AND SMELL THE COFFEE" life may seem cruel at times. but remember what goes around comes around . its not a song . its life. its a circle. no one goes around doing wrong , runing away from the truth , hurting people will ever live peacefully.

friends are one thing i cannot live without . but sometime i ask myself how many friends do i really have ? can i even count ? can they even fit my ten fingers ? wait can they even fit one hand ? i know alot of people . alot of people know me. even wonder what people say when they hear your name ? oh Adele that bitch or oh Adele that girl or oh Adele that mean thing. sometimes you just wonder how much you appreciate your Friends do they do the same for you ? how much you sacrifice for them will they ever do the same for you. are they friends ?

how do you define Friends ? someone who knows you just by your name ? someone who knows every detail bout you ? someone who just goes to the same college as you and attend the same class and SOMETIMES go out and hang out with you and other friends . i never thought life was this complicating . its so sad to have a blog sometimes cause you feel that its the only thing that you can talk to. without is calling you stupid or a moron back at you lol .

ever thought you were the only one on earth that was different or u just did not fit in and just wanted to go like " GET ME OUT OF HERE" well i was always feeling like that till i met real friends who were like me . from personality to humour and someone who accepts you for you, and not having you to change.

i am just happy where i am not today. i have people around me that i can trust . people i love. i guess some things that happen to you in life ls just LIFE. if not for all these things there is no LIFE right ? well ... i am sorry if i had offended some of you people .. well all i know is if you are not guilty then you're free . i don't mend to make you fell bad. i just feel like letting out everything . lol sorry.

condolences to Heath Ledger family and friends and most important FANS

as base in the news taken from CBC news :

Ledger's death accidental, says his family
Last Updated: Wednesday, January 23, 2008 6:28 AM ET
CBC News
An autopsy on the body of actor Heath Ledger is scheduled for Wednesday as his family rejected any suggestion their son committed suicide, calling his death accidental.
The Australian-born actor was found in a Manhattan apartment Tuesday afternoon by a housekeeper. Police said he was lying naked in bed with a bottle of sleeping pills nearby and that the death appeared to be drug-related.
Actor Heath Ledger attends a special Cinema Society screening of I'm Not There at the Chelsea West Cinemas in New York in November 2007.(Evan Agostini/Associated Press)
A New York medical examiner will conduct an autopsy Wednesday, with results due back on Thursday.
Ledger's father, Kim, read a statement to reporters Wednesday in the actor's hometown of Perth, Australia, where he spent some time during the Christmas holidays.
Continue Article


"We, Heath's family, can confirm the very tragic, untimely and accidental passing of our dearly loved son, brother and doting father of Matilda," Ledger said. "He was found peacefully asleep in his New York apartment by his housekeeper at 3:30 p.m."
Ledger remembered his 28-year-old son as a "down to earth, generous, kindhearted, life-loving, unselfish individual" who was "extremely inspirational" to those who knew him.
He also asked the media to respect the family's privacy and the need to grieve.
As news of the death spread, tributes poured in from fellow Australians.

Actress Nicole Kidman called the death a "terrible tragedy," while Cate Blanchett, who recently starred with Ledger in the film I'm Not There, said she was "shocked and saddened."
Actor Mel Gibson, who appeared with Ledger in The Patriot, issued a statement saying that the young actor "was just taking off, and to lose his life at such a young age is a tragic loss."
Australia's Prime Minister Kevin Rudd expressed shock over losing "one of our nation's finest actors in the prime of his life."
Larry Williams, father of actress Michelle Williams, Ledger's former partner and mother of their daughter, extended his sympathies to the actor's family.With files from the Australian Broadcasting Corporation, the Associated Press .

you will always be in our hearts , your passion your love your sacrifice will always be remembered.

maay you Rest In Piece .

ohhh is it just me oh or is HOT IN HERE !

well.... i know its been ages since i last updated . i still have not collected a few photos of the past events of my life lol so cant update just yet . anyway i was bored and found pictures of some pretty hot and interesting males out there .. haha lets take a look and see whether you agree with me ...

can you imagine this was like the first guy i ever had the biggest crush on ... it even brought together a good and cherished friendship .. ( thini ehem ehem ) mark from westlife ... how hot ...then down the road ... guess what ... the guys GAY ! like oh my god ... my luck :(

yes yes its the guy from heaven . thats why they call him ANGEL lol this is like the second guy i ever liked on tv the only reason i started watching angel was because i liked him ... isn't he hawt lol .. good news ... this guy aint gay ( at least thats what i know off la ... try not to pop the bubble :)

yes yes he is definitly on every girls list ... BUT believe it or not ..... i dont quite agree you know who i this is way hotter ?

NOPE not him ..... lol guess again ...

YES !! the one an only keanu rieves lol did i spell in right ?? anyway bottome line is HE"S HOT .... tell you did not watch speed and go DAMN !

i like his look ..... nice .... down to earth ... macho yet silent ... HOT :

jude law !! yes baby i would break the law anytime for you baby ! haha he is one of a kind .. i say ! agree ??? come on .. div where are you lol

ooohhh who is thhe fav pirate of al time ... nope nt captain hook but OF CAUSE captain jack sparrow lol .... the only look i like of this guy .... trust me ....not charlie and the choc factory .. or edward sisc. lol

here are some other guys I FIND pretty good to look at ... lol ) a nicer way to put it .

james marsden .. hm..... remember X men lol ... well he was good then ...till he turn to singing ... he was OK in hairspray ..... but enchanted ??ermm i am not saying his voice was not nice .... but being a dumb ass is soo not his role to play .. how maufying lol

hm .... another X MEN hottie lol .... i like the whole dirty look thing going on .... not as in THAT dirty look but the whole not clean chaven look ... WHAT WERE you thinking :> ??

he NEW and hottest kid on the block ... you'll definitlly keep the neighbours awake to late too late

lets take a different route for a while ..... lets swap continents lol

now THIS is why i like my coffee black and white .. ( i dont mean to be racist and i am not being one i am saying i like all races ;)

DENZEL washington is like ... woah ...... every girls dream ... ever heard this line " when i taste chocalate i am never going back :)

he was not named fresh prince for no reason lol. now you can picture men in black ?? i mean the real thing MEN IN BLACK .. + HOTTIE .. :P

remember LA BAMBA ..... no no he aint the real ritchie vallens he played the character in the movie ... now thats HOT ... ( hmmmmmmmmm)

ever heard of graceful aging ??? lol this is what i mean <------ lol

he's old but still kicking lol

well i guess this has just prooven to the world how lame and bored adele is ?? well if you read it means ...... you're bored too ?? hahaha

too all the good looking men in the world .. cheers .. to all the gay but ggod looking once ... ITS YOUR LOST :P

del